drank 3 cups of coffee in th morning. Feeling dam drowzy even aft drinking tat. Head to sch w vania n th usual routine of studying etc etc. Ended sch went for the financial stuf. Took jvss for th game. N all i cn say it was absofuckinglutely dull,exhausting n tiring.. Ended ard 5. Took the cab w vania.



Reached hm! Tv,bath,sms,phn, th usuals.. I gues gona slp soon prepare 4 tmr biz n maths leson.. !

2nd day..
just woke up frm my nap.
Feeling dam exhausted n sore. I hate tis feeling. Damn.
Attended mr ong's program tis afternoon. Thn went to discus tings w ms cheong n went hm. Ate, do sm stuf, n slp til nw.

Maths n poa test was hell. T cher din alow me to slp! ):
Im feeling dam hell restless. I juz hv no mood in doing anyting. All i care is my slp n i onli tat at the moment.

GV ME BK MY SLPING TYM ! )):

Lack of slp seriously make me look terible n make me grumpy.
A few qst to ask myself..
Shd i slp thru evryting n juz dun bloody gv a dam abt evryting?
Shd i mantain tis kind of friendly mask towards a bunch of ppl who wouldnt even bother?
Shd i drink coffee n b adicted to it to slp lesser?
Does sacrificing my nap tym n studying instead help in my eoy?

At th rate im tinking abt so much stuf wil make me grow more white hair 1 of tis days i tink..

Form t cher showed us the points required to go poly n th diff courses available. I was planning to go to th nursing or interior design course. Bt all my hopes was erased whn a t cher said failing maths couldnt gt u anywher thn ite or international sch. N i gues im considering sim or mdis..

Screwed. Y mus i b tis fkin dumb in maths?

Thr is a business investment game tmr n im hpnd to b 1 of th person in charge of it! :/

Well at least thrs a gd ting hpning tmr..
I cn finaly gt to c him :DD . Though mayb its juz awhile bt hu cares.

Yawnns. Gona start checking on my email attachment tonite aft my lovely bath..

aft a 2nd thought i decided to revive tis blog agn from its eternal damnation..
Lots of memories swam back to me whn i 1st made tis blog under the influence of sum1 n in the hope of pouring my frustration,share my hapiness and cure my loneliness. The memories,evry post tat ive deleted made tis blog unbearable to be damned forever.

Lots of tings had bin happening recently which makes me wonder how an unstable person lyk me could manage to survive all tis mixed up thoughts without exploding or went berserk lyk wad used to happen before. Regrets began to resurface once agn. over different stuff.

Tat aside, thr sum1 hu used to b my best frd. N i gt rly close to her once..
Tat seemed ages ago. Nw the agonising fact shows ryt infront of my face, tat both of us were so far apart.. Torn n separated greatly by tym. I mis those days whn we cn pon sch tgt, chat in msn almoz evryday n sms non stop lyk nbd busines. Nw were nt more thn a stranger. Cn we stil cal each other gd frd lyk we use to b?

N nw. Th onli tings tat i crave badly is to pass eoy n gt promoted to sec 4. Exam is juz in 2 weeks n im simply dying. I nid my painkiller..
So many subj i had to revise n im aiming to pas 2 languages,humans n busines which seems to be totaly absurd. Maths test tmr n i cant b bothered to even study as idk wad the chapt is even toking abt.
Thr r thoughts tat r stil un answerable.. lyk hw to escape frm my family, wad course shd i take aft sec sch,wad wil b workin as,my future..
My eyes r half closing yet i stil wanted to type to pour my untold frustration.

Life simply sux. Yet its inevitable.


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yawns..